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Why I lie about my age

Or, why people think I do.  Many other people do as well, probably because they intuit what I overthink.

Is someone 15, going on 16, or are they just 15?  It can get annoying (and creepy…why am I talking about 15 year olds?), and I’ve heard plenty of people complain about people talking that way.

I say I’m 27, though I’m really 26.  The day of birth is somewhat arbitrary as a day of celebration in my opinion, but I understand and accept it is helpful to establish a base from which to determine age.  Is age truly relevant?  Probably not, but we like to accept it as important.  We need SOME standard of judging people by, and it’s too complex to judge on merit and ability, so why not age?

Anyway, 6 months after your birthday, any given individual nudges the line from closer-to-last-birthday to closer-to-next-birthday.  So, just round to the nearest birthday.  This way, you remain within 6 months error of what people are asking.  If we do it the traditional way, then one day before your birthday, there are 364 days error in your communications.

Now go and lie more about your age.

 

phoneRage

“new” phone?  i have a samsung stratosphere now.  it replaced my original droid. it’s not as particularly hackable, but i got a splenditudinal deal on craigslist.

this leads me to my lack of sleep last night.  around midnight, i installed an update for my launcher.  something got horked.  it sort of, kept locking up on the homescreen, but not in a way i’ve ever seen before.  it made me think the battery was dead.  the screen went dark…but not COMPLETELY black.  it looked sort of stained.  the tried to start again. and kept choking.

what i’m trying to say is, i cannot get a good night of sleep if my phone isn’t working. and if my computer is having issues…fuggedaboudit.  had to stay up til 2am until it was working smoothly again. this does not help my sleep issues.

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Sometimes, I feel very sad. It’s a deep, unsettling, omni-life-sad.  Sometimes, (especially) atheists may say things about religion or god or belief in such things is a crutch.  It really is.  I don’t know what else to fall back on, except my belief in god being real and me having a real purpose in life, and the purpose is quite simple; to love god and love people.  Any schemes or dreams that I have are, in the broad scale of the universe, insignificant.  Neither myself nor anyone can really accomplish anything of cosmic significance, for many definitions of cosmic significance.  The cosmos doesn’t know, and doesn’t care about you.  I’m not talking about the happy pappy “EVERY LIFE YOU TOUCH IS SIGNIFICANT” area.  Sure, people are important, but a comet could smack the earth into the sun like golf ball going into, the sun, and galaxies and physics and math and gravity would keep on spinning.

Lately, I’ve been super motivated.  Until the past day or two of blah-ness, I mean.  I’ve learned a lot, grown a lot, studied a lot.  Learning learning learning, and theoretically I love it…but I keep coming back to all is meaningless.  We have no inherit value except what is imbued in us as creations of god.  I don’t particularly know what that means at this point, but I believe it to be true.  So what if I understand politics, economics, history, psychology?  I don’t even know what to do with it.  I’ll keep learning though.

Does it matter how big I get? Is there any relevance for me in the world? I struggle to connect with everyone around me, even/especially my family.  And it’s not some sort of fucked up insane family…we are pretty a snapshot of a standard happy nuclear family.  I’ve always done my own thing, and that isolates me from the world I live in.

Things ain’t so bad.  I just need outlets and connection and community.  Meg helps keep me sane and growing, even though it’s work loving someone so different from yourself.

EMO

community

I’ve just finished reading Life, Inc. by Douglas Rushkoff.  I’ve summarized a little on my life wiki, but it spurred a decent amount of thought.

I’d like to start out with trying to figure this out:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ocKFSLsZnUo

Hmm. Do people cheer because they want people dead?  Or because Perry takes a strong stance on harsh penalties?  Either way, I struggle with the timing of their cheering.

People in society has been disconnected from each other, and I feel the above reaction points to that.  Actually, I just wanted to address that clip, and this seemed a decent way to say my thoughts on it, and loosely related it to the book I just finished.

So, Life Inc.  Our lives are dominated by a corporate mindset.  Forget about the corporations themselves; focus on the mindset it has given us.  Many people would rather pay for moving people, rather than have to deal with those pesky people they know.  We give money to support causes, instead of participating in a cause.  We live our lives by proxy…we watch reality shows for our personal interaction, we vote for the candidates who espouse our beliefs (instead of getting involved to make a difference), and continually abstract our interactions.

I know, this isn’t true for you.  YOU get involved, right?  But most people don’t.  The key to a grassroots movement is individuals acting how they should.  So get involved.  Talk to people.  Choose being part of a community over being a consumer.

 

life and wurk

It seems there are a decent amount of “interesting” software companies with interesting ideas, business practices, etc. They might work weird hours or have strange incentive programs…just conduct business a little differently than “as usual”. Less Dilbert-esque, more something-else-esque.

I like that. Alternative brains (as engineers often have) work most productively in alternative environments. In theory, we are “professionals”, who make a salary because we have a job to do, regardless of hours worked.

So, let us do that. Work from home, work from the office, work from the beach…is the job getting done? Why does all the power remain in the hands of the employer, when it’s the employee(s) that allow for the employer to exist?

the reBOOT

I haven’t posted at all since I went to Haiti. I feel they are connected somehow. But my brain is being revitalized, and I have things to post.

I might run for president or something like that when they deem me old enough. 2024 sounds like a good target, eh? Politics is full of politicians, so I’m sure I’ll be able to a bang up job in comparison. Things obviously won’t get fixed immediately, but there’s steps that can be taken. I think there are a few root causes that keep the government evil. A short and incomplete list of things I find important to the every day life of the American public, in rough order of importance.

1. Remove corn subsidies (5-10 year plan).
2. Reform IP/patent law in favor of consumers.
3. Have telecom infrastructure be government-owned. I think this is my only bigger .gov move.
4. Increase tariffs on imports to increase revenue and stimulate local manufacturing.
5. Allow big businesses to fail.
6. Stricter requirements on all school loans. Yes. This would make it “harder” to go to college.
7. Phase-down welfare and social security, and police those on it. No HDTVS and smartphones or you’re out.
8. Build nuclear power plants.
9. Remove our military police force from the world.
10. Have a privatized industry for auditing government activities.

Anyway, vote for me, 2024. You think I’m joking, don’t you.

This is a picture of me in Haiti.

News != Social Media

I went to CNN.com because of something I’d heard about. Go there. Look on the right side. Are you a Facebook user, like almost everyone else? You get to see what all your friends were doing and sharing.

I’ve seen MSNBC reading what people are tweeting about in response to issues. Now news is “reporting” on what my friends’ think is popular.

How bout news? Anyone? Anyone? Bueller?