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ssh

I’m not shushing you.

I need to get my servers running at home in optimal shape so I can pull pictures off of them to post while I’m at work, since that’s when motivation usually strikes.

Yesterday Meg got locked in her apartment, which is pretty scary.  I thought she was being silly girl who somehow forgot how to open doors because, how do you lock yourself in your apartment?  She thought she was being silly girl too.  She wasn’t, she was legit locked in through either some screwup in the lock mechanism, or some screwup in the lock mounting on the door.

So I was  a HERO and came and let her out.  Hooray.

But then last night I took apart the lock and “broke” it.  At least, I removed the mechanism that can lock her inside, which was super fly and fun to do. I want to post a picture of the inner workings of the lock, but I can’t do that til later, since I’m lame and never set up my server at home to really work.  I might bit the bullet and buy a NAS enclosure, even though that’s the easy way out.

missed plans

i had planned on blogging about:

-the new rats i saved

-my work situation (in abstract terms; you ain’t using my online words against me)

-my life/love situation

-thoughts on marketing/advertising

-thoughts on ‘just living’ vs fully examining situations, and if you can TOO FULLY examine a situation

-taxes

-some people that i non-romantically love

but i didn’t write about ANY of those things!

touche google

I found out that more people than I realized don’t actually “read” my blog, but have it hand fed to them by Google Reader.  I don’t really know anything about this Reader, but thanks for taking my hardwritten blags and turning them into a COMMODITY item that people don’t even have to work for.

You all should be totally ashamed.

rats

nostalgiacs

I’d like to direct you to this place.  Keeping clicking to read older and older posts, and have more and more fun.

http://ihaveablog.xanga.com/

It’s my old blagging stomping grounds.  It’s full of uh maze ing nuggets all about me.  I can only blag with that sort of brilliance once in awhile, I vow here and now to again become a blagger par excellunce.  And include more pictures.  Starting next post.  Or the one after that.

another post!

Two posts in less than twenty four hours, I’m on a crazy writing streak.

Maybe I’ll start writing in the mornings. Maybe it’s good for me!

Yesterday, I felt so drained and wiped out.  Probably a combination of work stress, financial ‘stress’ (funny how though money isn’t a problem, feeling like I have to spend too much stresses me out), and my girlfriend being gone again, coupled with the fact that I normally need a decent amount of alone time, and I hadn’t got that in a long, long time.  Well, if a few weeks is a long time.

I feel rested.  I slept through the whole night, I think…that’s not super common.  I felt exhausted when I woke up…and recall actually saying to myself, “Get out of bed, you turd”.  How’s that for self loathing, eh.

My brain and body are tired of being tired and stressed.  Today, they instructed me to be happy, and I am.  Retaining my love for everrryyything today will be high priority, and I feel optimistic and ready to LIVE.  Funny, cause today is a NORMAL DAY.  So I’m going to LIVE a NORMAL DAY.  But staying content during that…that’s something that’s often way too hard to achieve.  Eye before eee.

hmmm

i think the real answer is: i need a vacation.  but vacations really don’t help; the instant you’re back at work, the stress level is back at its typical work level.  i don’t much care for it.

the idealist in me is truly slaughtered by the whole work-stress problem.  there’s really no need for it.  no one WANTS to be stressed at work; everyone would rather be happy and work and play and balance.  but, the work culture has taught us a different paradigm, and by the time you’re in a position to change that thinking, you’ve usually become completely enveloped in it.  this is just a generalization.

the manager doesn’t want to make the employee miserable (usually); they merely respond to pressure from middle management, who responds to pressure from upper management.  ps, who needs all these artificial levels of management?  bureaucracy does, and thats the corporate life we live…

keep it small. keep it simple. bigger is not better.  technology is a fascinating celebration of the gifts given to us from on high and man’s ability to delve into and comprehend the universe gifted to us.

but these are all fringe.  i gots to keep on enlarging my sphere of love, my sphere of understanding, and the sphere of caring about those around me.  its ALWAYS the people around you who bring out the vibrancy and joy in life.

however, i’m long overdue for some alone time and gaming.

i am also in love.  i don’t much talk about personal things here.  i don’t believe in advertising my personal life.  but i miss talking about my personal life in a coffee shop with those people.

the zone

I only seem to manage to consistently blog when I’m in a certain mood.  If things are going great, I tend to forget about it. If things are bad, I don’t blog anything significant because I don’t feel like I want to publicize all my feelings. That’s a change from my wistful days of youth; I used to advertise everything.  Now I don’t.
But things are not bad now by any means.  I just decided to let you all know that.  And you all is…well, this isn’t really a place most people know to read.

I’d like an opportunity to cut my mind free and drift.  It relaxes me.

change?

I’m halfway considering throwing my resume up on teh interwebs, and seeing where the wind takes me.  By the wind, I mean God. But wind is more poetic. And like most engineers, I’m very poetical.

Strange that this top-secret place where I post my thoughts and feelings…I can’t post, because I have too many feelings.  I can’t even anonymously post the strain and pain my brain has been feeling.  Weird.  The other secret is that I have a top secret google docs page where I keep all my top secret writings.  So only me, God, and the GOOGLE SERVER ADMINISTRATORS can read those.

even more

Regrettably, I’m still spending much too much time in the ANGRY DOME.

if you need me today, you’ll find me in the ANGRY DOME.

(an interesting change from my previous post)

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