i woke up at 5am today.
it has been quite some time since i’ve seen 5am. i honestly can’t put my finger on the last time. there’s a better chance that it was a late-night-bar-hopping-home-at-5:30am event rather than waking up to the sun.
it’s not my fault. i brought my brother in law to the airport.
its abstractly fascinating to feel awake, and see the clock ticking off numbers that i don’t recall seeing while being functional.
i’m eating well; lots of fruits and vegetables, minimal (but still there!) meat, very few sugary drinks or processed garbage. that means day to do, i feel great, and even when i wake up this early, i still feel good and ready to go.
my brain is near its peak, if not at it. work drags sometimes; but that’s work. im quite comfortable with, just myself right now. i’m 100% able to go for a walk, bike ride, fishing, all by my lonesome, and be happy and content. some may say, so what? thats lame, i CELEBRATE alone time, its not hard! for a massive extrovert such as myself, being able to be quiet, alone, and peaceful without your brain running in thousand different directions wanting to see a thousand different people is a significant feat.
im content and peaceful with life; i have a path before me that i choose to take. i have been blessed by god, and i know i could reject the path, find another, and that wouldn’t work out poorly. but i choose to accept the blessings i receive right now, bask in them, and be peaceful, thankful, joyful, and full of love.
life is heading in wonderful directions. i do have a few selfish thoughts of what *i* want to happen. i’m interested in seeing how i handle it when the direction of my life shifts AWAY from what i want. i love basking like this, and i fervently hope it prepares me for the next storm, whatever form that may take.
Jamie
Awesome.